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You smelled like the summer sun
Warm, shining alone in the daylight
While I was the moon, cold in the night
Borrowing your beam to shine
You came in like a bird flew from the old chimney top
Carried by our teenage dreams and hope
You remind me of everything I’ve left behind
Trying to ignore how your rays burn
You see, time is clearly an illusion
All the years that had vanished and gone
Those paths we’d been through without each other
The desolations that once seemed to be over
Your fears. My insecurities.
Your pain. My desperation.
Your doubt. My gut.
Your anxiety. My insanity.
You pushed me to dig under my skin
Brought it all up and crushed my head in
I thought I have learned, I thought I was on the way
I thought I could make you stay
How I wished God was kind
How I wished you were the one
How I wished all our dreams were on track
How I wished you’ve never came back
Seeking for the truth that I have denied
Lies beneath the distant voice and tears
Struggling to differ fantasies and realities
And I couldn’t find you when they died
One day when God finally shows me the light
I will remember that Christmas night
When over and over I cried, “I’ve tried”
I know He knows my fight.